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INTRODUCTION
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IB
学生简介
杨雅淇
广州外国语学校爱莎文华IBDP课程 首届毕业生
录取院校
中国香港：香港大学，香港科技大学
英国：爱丁堡大学，巴斯大学
加拿大：多伦多大学
澳洲：悉尼大学，墨尔本大学，昆士兰大学
美国：宾州州立大学
对于充满变数的未来，我能够做到的是在面对困难停滞不前的时候去畅想未来的美好，让自己有了动力去跨过这个坎。同时又在对未来迷茫而没有了动力时去关注当下，先将每一步都走好。
这一路走来，结识了许多重要的人，也是她们的支持与帮助促成了我的成长。所有的经历，以及进入IB体系的机遇，都让我拓宽了我的眼界，并且从多个角度去认识这个世界中的不同。这不仅帮助我更好的不断自我探索，也让我的思想得到了成长。
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改 变
我很讨厌让事情脱出我的掌控，所以我喜欢做非常详细的计划。然而，我经历过最多的却也是“改变”。
不管是出国留学、频繁地换学校，还是从国外回到国内上学，这些改变让我只能去常常调整我自己的节奏。每次去到陌生的环境都让我非常痛苦，我以前经常抱怨因为换学校次数太多导致我一直没有长期朋友，并且每次去到新的环境都需要再去花时间适应。
但是在许多年后，我才意识到正是因为这些改变，我得到了更大的成长。例如，现在的我能够快速的去适应并应对突如其来的问题，也能够很快的在压力之下调整我的心态。这些“改变”的经历，在日常生活以及学习备考中都很大程度上帮助了我。因此我也非常庆幸能够拥有这些经历。
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自 信
不知道是因为国外的文化氛围，还是因为当时的我年幼无知，在国外的那段时间我非常自信。我不会去过多在意别人的看法，别人对我的批评我没过多久就不在意了。我也会毫不犹豫的表达自己，并且就算做错了事情也几乎不会全部否定自己。
回到国内后，不知道为什么，我开始感受到来自身边的各种焦虑：容貌焦虑、身材焦虑、学习焦虑等等。在我眼中非常完美的人都会时不时的抱怨自己哪里都不好。一开始我并没有特别在意，只是认为可能她们对自我要求非常高。但当我也开始被这种氛围感染，对自己特别的不满，开始特别在意别人的指指点点，随便一个人的恶意都会让我在意很久，让我不禁认为我难道真的是这样的人吗？这种否定并没有促使我奋起改变，而是让我越来越不自信。我对这样的自己非常失望，同时，也会为了让别人认可我去做一些我不想做的事情。这让我非常痛苦。
然而，在广外IB这一阶段，我终于与这些焦虑和解了。
不知道这个转变是因为网络上突然开始重视焦虑这一问题，还是因为我身边的支持，或两者都有。我们常说“从根源解决问题”，因此人们开始刨析焦虑的来源。例如身材与容貌焦虑的来源是现代单一化的审美，而解决方法随之而来的就是多元化的呈现。
同时，身边的人也互相鼓励、互相支持，希望让每个人都能够勇敢地做自己。
在这种氛围之下，我似乎又找回了以前的自信。不同于以前盲目的自信，现在的自信像是在更加了解自己之后从内而外所散发出的自信。这不仅让我能够更加爱自己，从而试图让自己成为更好的人，也让我能够从更加正面的角度去看待不同。受这些启发，我和我的在爱莎日导演了一部“爱自己，爱世界”的舞台剧，希望其他有焦虑的同伴们能够拥抱自己，爱自己，做自己。
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为别人自己学习
我印象当中，每当我妈训斥我的时候，她说过最多的话就是“不要以为你是在为了我学习。记住，你是在为了你自己。”
当然，以前的我也确实在为了别人而在学习。可能是为了满足自己的虚荣心，或者只是单纯的想要得到他人的赞扬，我那段时间开始非常努力地学习。别人报高等数学班，我也要报。即使数学并不是我的强项，我也并不喜欢天天与复杂的数字打交道，我也依然强迫自己去做。虽然这么做也有好处，我的成绩确实进步了许多，但是，为别人学习意味着没有别人的时候我是根本不会去学的。长时间装作自己学的很认真让我都被自己骗了，但装出来的始终不是真的。
表面的学习并没有让我完全掌握知识点，因此成绩会很不稳定。虽然在学，但是学得非常痛苦，让我经常陷入精神内耗。
后来，可能是终于开始期待未来的自己，也看到了身边的一些例子，我开始意识到学习对自己的重要性。同时，在进入到了IB体系后，它所提倡的学习以及思考方式也帮助我意识到了学习以及知识并不是枯燥且单一的。
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不是去为了与别人对比，而是在不断学习的过程当中去找到自己喜欢的东西，并成为更好的自己。
致谢
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INTRODUCTION
IB
INTRODUCTION
Christina Yang
One of the First Group of Graduates from Guangzhou Foreign Language School ISA Wenhua IB Diploma Programme
University Offers Received
Hong Kong:University of Hong Kong, Hong Kong University of Science and Technology
UK: University of Edinburgh, University of Bath
Canada: University of Toronto
Australia:University of Sydney, University of Melbourne, University of Queensland
USA: Pennsylvania State University
Facing a future full of changes, what I can do is to imagine the beauty of the future when I am stuck on difficulties, so that I would have the motivation to overcome the challenges. At the same time, when I feel unsure about the future and have no motivation, I would pay attention to the present and take every step well first.
Along the way, I have met many important people, and it was their support and help that contributed to my growth. All my experiences, including the opportunity to enter the IB community, have allowed me to broaden my horizons and understand the differences in the world from multiple perspectives. This not only helps me to better explore my inner myself constantly, but also allows my mind to grow.
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Change
I hate having things get out of my control, so I like to make very detailed plans. However, what I have experienced the most is also "change".
Whether it is studying abroad, changing schools frequently, or returning to China to study from abroad, these changes forced me to adjust my rhythm frequently. Every time I go to a new environment, it makes me very painful. I used to complain that I have no long-term friends because of changing schools too many times, and it took time to adapt every time I went to a new environment.
But after many years, I realized that it is because of these changes that I have grown even more. For example, now I have the ability to quickly adapt and deal with unexpected urgent problems, and I also have the ability to quickly adjust my mentality under pressure. These "change" experiences have greatly helped me in my daily life and studying for exams. So I feel very fortunate to have these experiences.
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Confidence
I don"t know if it was because of the cultural atmosphere abroad, or the fact that I was young and ignorant at the time, but I was very confident during that time abroad. I didn"t care too much about what other people think of me, and I didn"t care too much about others" criticism of me. I would express myself without hesitation, and even if I did something wrong, I would not negate myself completely.
After returning to China, for some reason, I began to feel all kinds of anxiety from people around me: appearance anxiety, body anxiety, study anxiety and so on. Even perfect people in my eyes would complain from time to time that they are not good at all. At first I didn"t pay much attention to it, I just thought they might have very high standards for themselves. But when I also began to be infected by this anxiety atmosphere, I started to become dissatisfied with myself, I began to pay special attention to other people"s comments on me, and I would make a fuss about negative comment from just anyone, I couldn"t help thinking if I was really such kind of anxiety-ridden person. This kind of self-negation did not motivate me to change, but made me less and less confident. I was very disappointed in myself being like this, and at the same time, I would do things I didn"t want to do in order to have others recognize me. It caused me so much pain.
However, during the time studying at Guangzhou Foreign Language School ISA Wenhua IB Diploma Programme, I finally reconciled with these anxieties.
I don"t know if this change was due to the sudden attention on anxiety on the internet, the support from people around me, or both. We often say "solve problems from the root", so people start to analyze the root of their anxiety. For example, the root of body and appearance anxiety is because of the modern simplistic aesthetics, and the solution is to have diversified presentation of beauty.
At the same time, people around me also encourage and support each other, hoping that everyone could be brave enough to be themselves.
In this atmosphere, I seem to have regained my previous self-confidence. Different from the blind self-confidence before, my current self-confidence is exuding from the inside out after knowing myself better. Not only does it allow me to love myself more and try to be a better person, but it also allows me to see differences in a more positive light. Inspired by these, my friends and I directed a musical titled "Love Yourself, Love the World" on ISA Festival Day, hoping that other students with anxiety could embrace themselves, love themselves, and be themselves.
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Learn for Others Myself
In my impression, whenever my mother reprimanded me, what she said the most was "Don"t think you are studying for me. Remember, you are studying for yourself."
It is true that I used to study for others. It may be to satisfy my own vanity, or simply wanting to be praised by others. I was studying very hard for a period of time. When others enroll in advanced mathematics classes, I also did so. Even though math wasn"t my strong suit and I didn"t enjoy working with numbers every day, I still pushed myself to do it. While there were benefits in doing that, and my grades improved a lot, learning for others meant that I would not learn at all when others were not around. For a long time, I pretended that I was studying very seriously, I was actually deceiving myself, as what I pretended was never true.
The superficial study did not allow me to fully grasp the knowledge, so my grades were very unstable. Although I was studying, it was very painful, and I often fell into mental conflicts.
Later, I finally started to look forward to my future self, and I also saw some good examples around me. I began to realize the importance of learning to me. At the same time, after entering the IB community, the way of learning and thinking it advocates also helped me realize that learning and knowledge are not boring or monotonous.
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What matters is not to compare with others, but to find what you like in the process of continuous learning and become a better version of yourself.
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